Day 3
Today started as usual. I wake up and my mind begins to work immediately on my weight problem and my addiction. My mind is constantly trying to help me break out. Every morning of everyday I wake up and my first thoughts are about how to break out. I feel my guardian angels working on my brain while it is in a relatively clean state. I picture them crowding around with their wonderful ideas of how to help me on little placards, taking turns feeding the information through the filter of the spirit. Some mornings there is only a tiny pinprick of a filter opening. Other times there is a porous sponge awaiting their input.

It just occurs to me that Satan also assigns his demons to attend me. They also await their opportunity to influence my mood and decisions. I can picture them waiting for my weak moments, my addiction moments, to jump aboard and tease and invite and coax and tempt.
I have the God given power to dismiss them and turn to my allies for support.

I shared in ‘Daily Devotions’ I kind of poured my heart out and said how desperate I felt. The people said ‘thank you for sharing’. It felt empty, but I think I get it. No one judges or offers advice, just a listening ear. It is up to me and my support team (God and the angels) to get me up and running on the right path.

“Don’t turn your head
Keep looking at the bandaged place.
That is where the light enters you.
And don’t believe for a moment
That you are healing yourself.”
Rumi

I am a food addict. I cannot heal this addiction by myself. I need Heavenly help.